It’s been a couple of days since we last spoke, so what’s been happening in my life? Friday was a particularly quiet day. I had a day off so I could try and concentrate on my book as it’s almost at the point of completion and I really want to get it finished now. It has been proofread by the wonderful Mrs Bob and all the artwork is in place. It’s just a case of finishing my foreword and thank-yous and sending everything off.
This book will, without a shadow of a doubt, be the hardest and most personal thing that I have ever done. Putting everything out there for all to see, my innermost thoughts and feelings laid bare on paper for strangers to judge. Yes, as an Aspie I get the irony of saying that on a blog. Most of the scribbles (poems) written in this book were written before I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome. This was a darker time in my life when I had serious depression, so some of the book is hard going. I used my scribbles to try and get across how I was feeling emotionally and as a form of therapy. It really helped.
I’m really nervous and excited about putting my work out into the public domain, as once it’s out there, there is no going back – no way of unseeing my words. But I guess when you are as open as I am and will continue to be in my ramblings here, then what’s the worst that could happen? The book has inspired this blog and this blog a second book. Almost like a perpetual motion engine. “A perpetual motion machine is a hypothetical machine that can do work indefinitely without an energy source. This kind of machine is impossible, as it would violate the first and second law of thermodynamics.”
So it’s exciting to see where this whole journey will take me, but I can say no matter what happens I’m glad I took the chance. Also I’m so glad to have Mrs Bob – she is responsible for getting the idea of a book to where I am now. Also, for being on hand to proofread my book and polish it up. Without her, it would be like this blog! (Mrs Bob doesn’t proof my blog hence all the errors) The ramblings of a dyslexic Aspie – so you guys owe her one too!
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