After the incident at work with my “I’m Autistic” badge the other day. I decided to share a scribble with you all, it’s taken from Scribblology
(Also known as my angry old man phase)
There’s this one little thing,
One stupid little phrase
I hear almost every time
I say to someone new
That I’m autistic:
“But you don’t look autistic”
Oh really? So, how’s my autism
Supposed to look to you?
It’s as messed up and stupid
as saying, “You don’t really look gay”.
Just because your eyes don’t see it,
Doesn’t mean that it’s not there.
Your attitude is what’s ultimately
Wrong with this world and the
Way it views disabled people.
Just because I’m not in a wheelchair
You think that there’s nothing wrong.
That I just need to be more social
Perhaps I should just… “cheer up”?
Have you ever considered that my
Struggle is not a physical one,
But a battle within my psyche?
Trying desperately to be more
Like the rest of you and your world?
It’s taken years of trial and error
To become this good an actor.
I should be nominated for an Oscar
For this portrayal of one of you.
I’ve had to study you and through
Making mistakes and being misunderstood;
Countless hard lessons learned.
Become the person you criticise.
Who you look down on and who you
Call a fake or a liar, because clearly
I’m so very ‘normal’ and not
The stereotypical disabled person.
Would you feel better if you could see
The way my brain is different to yours?
Maybe that would make it easier for
People to start to believe us.
Or accept that, hard as it may be,
Not every disability is visible.
Not every disability has a ‘look’.
So, before you judge me,
Stop. Think. Take a second
Before you make yourself look like an
Ignorant, ableist, waste of space
Spewing that hateful phrase
That turns my stomach to acid.
Hurts me. Feeds my anger.
“You don’t look Autistic”.
(C) Bob W Christian