What is one way you have grown this year?
If you’d asked me at the start of the year what I was, I’d probably have answered, “A poet cosplaying as a photographer.”
Photography has always been something I loved, but if I’m honest, I never really took myself seriously. I was happy enough wandering around with a camera, taking pictures of birds, nature, and whatever happened to catch my eye, while quietly convincing myself that “real photographers” were other people.
This year, I decided to change that.
Rather than treating photography as a hobby I occasionally dabbled in, I made a conscious decision to push myself outside of my comfort zone and see what would happen if I actually gave it a proper go.
As it turns out, sometimes the universe rewards you for taking a chance.
Earlier this year, I was offered a place on the photography team at a local event. It might not seem like a huge thing to some people, but for me it was a turning point. It was the moment I realised that perhaps I wasn’t just pretending after all.
Don’t get me wrong, imposter syndrome still likes to whisper in my ear from time to time. It tells me I’m not good enough, that I’m making it up as I go along, and that sooner or later someone will realise I haven’t got a clue what I’m doing.
The difference now is that I no longer believe it.
I’ve learned that growth isn’t about becoming fearless. It’s about taking the next step despite the fear. It’s about backing yourself, taking opportunities when they appear, and accepting that occasionally you’ll stumble along the way.
And if I do fall?
I’ll pick myself up, dust myself off, and try again.
So the biggest way I’ve grown this year is simple.
I’ve finally become the poet and photographer my business cards have been insisting I was all along.
Stay safe,
Bc
The Ramblings of Bob Christian 